Life is all about winning. It starts from childhood and follows us until our death. Back when we were young it was as simple as winning the affection of our parents, doing our chores so we will be rewarded with chocolates and having the most beautiful toy among our peers. It gets more complicated as we grow older though. The contest progresses to who gets to be the top of the class, who bags the trophy for quiz bee and who is the "coolest" at school. From these lifelong experience we should learn humility from our success and resilience if we are defeated to be prepared for what's ahead of us, bigger challenges and more heartbreaking losses.
As reality sinks in and the idealistic me slowly fades, I gradually learn that the concept of winning is simply complicated. It still is getting what you are yearning for but then our wants and ideals varies with every individual. You may think you are pathetic and that you lost but others may view your life as a great success. On the other hand, you may think you've got the world in your hands but still others might see you as a failure.
In retrospect of the things that I've been through, I could say that winning is a part of life but it should not be the machine that makes us work for we can never win it all. Let's just be grateful for our wins and embrace our losses for every challenge is all about the experience, the result is just a bonus.
Friday, April 8, 2011
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Time and Travel
From Philippines to UAE to Singapore all in a span of 1 year. Nice huh?! Oh well it is and it isn't. If I had lots of money and travel just for the heck of it then it definitely is fun. But to travel with just enough money and look for work in these countries makes things a lot more complicated. Nevertheless, I'll try to collect the memories I had and is still making in this journey of mine.
Traveling 8 hours alone in a plane makes you look at things in every perspective you can think of and end up more confused than you were at the start. You ask yourself if you're doing the right thing and hope that everything will be all right, think back of the things that led you to decide to leave. And then you wish that everything will be worth it.
Then you will be fazed by realizations that it isn't as easy as you initially thought it would be so you trudge through the days moving along wherever you must be and whatever you must do to earn. You may hate, love or both hate and love the situations that you find yourself in and there will be no fighting it because you realize that it is a losing battle from the start and all you can do is escape.
So escape I did leaving everything that for a time were the only things that made sense. But life is a never ending cycle, when I think back I see that all I ever did was ran away when things get bad, when I feel alone, when I get bored and more importantly when I feel worthless. I have always expected so much from everything and everyone without having to show or do something at all. When I don't get what I want I try to get it somewhere else, not exactly caring about who or what's left behind. Now I wish to change all that.
Traveling 8 hours alone in a plane makes you look at things in every perspective you can think of and end up more confused than you were at the start. You ask yourself if you're doing the right thing and hope that everything will be all right, think back of the things that led you to decide to leave. And then you wish that everything will be worth it.
Then you will be fazed by realizations that it isn't as easy as you initially thought it would be so you trudge through the days moving along wherever you must be and whatever you must do to earn. You may hate, love or both hate and love the situations that you find yourself in and there will be no fighting it because you realize that it is a losing battle from the start and all you can do is escape.
So escape I did leaving everything that for a time were the only things that made sense. But life is a never ending cycle, when I think back I see that all I ever did was ran away when things get bad, when I feel alone, when I get bored and more importantly when I feel worthless. I have always expected so much from everything and everyone without having to show or do something at all. When I don't get what I want I try to get it somewhere else, not exactly caring about who or what's left behind. Now I wish to change all that.
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