win even in defeat

It's so amazing how our emotions can switch from high to low, from being ecstatic to being sad or from having a sudden surge of confidence to a heartbreaking sense of defeat. If we were machines, we would have deteriorated at a very early age. Luckily as humans, we have freewill and thus have the capability to dictate the outcome of any situation. We can still follow the fate of the machines and crumble under extreme wear and tear or we can rise up from every unlucky situation and come out stronger in every battle we go through whether it is a win or not. The choice is always ours so we have to make the best out of it.

the small lady

During the motor cab ride on the way to the office, there was one other passenger who was so small I think she's just about 4 feet tall. I could imagine a lot of things she could not do because of her height and the teasing and bullying she must have gone through because of this. But she definitely was able to survive it all cos she seemed just fine. What a fighter she must be. I think unconsciously she had inspired me to push through and find good in every situation because after all everyone goes through rough times every now and then.. :)

A road to discovery

For the longest time, I felt that my life has been dull, monotonous and it seems that I have failed in everything I did and failed everyone as well. Everyday I would see how my life is no different from yesterday and couple of days and weeks before. Instead of progressing, it's like physically, emotionally, psychologically and even spiritually I felt I was on the brink of a decline, a steep one.

One day I thought that maybe I was seeing my life the wrong way. I don't know if its the right word to say but I am so focused in seeing the big picture expecting a total transformation of my life and have totally forgot about the little things that really are the ones that define who we are.

So I'll be keeping a daily account of the little things that goes on in my life, maybe then I will be able to regain my self respect and discover a life that's one to be proud of.